See through

People that talk just to hear their own voice annoy the shit out of me. I know that I'm very opinionated but I also know when to keep my mouth shut.

Today at work I listened to two men blah about buying up ammunition for the end of the world (which they are convinced will happen in 2012, start buying guns and ammo now!) I turned to my boss and said, "Really? I bet I could walk faster than both of them and they'd make a nice feast. Throw that shit on the spit and call over the cannibal neighbors of the Apocalypse."

Then I come home to listen to a podcast that happens to be two people loving to sound of their own voices, too.

Oh well, at least I was getting paid to listen about the end of the world and it's my own fault wasting my time with the podcast. I guess it did get me writing again. Maybe the rum helped, too.

But hell, I might as well keep going. Cute couples make me sick. I know it's only because I'm jealous, which isn't fair (I've been in a relationship for over three years). People at the coffeeshop stand on the phone sweetly asking the person on the other end of the line, "Hey babe, what kind of coffee do you want? How many sugars, sugar? Okay, I'll be home with it soon. Love you." When am I going to get a call like that? I am a pretty nice person. I do anything for the people that matter to me (especially my significant other) but I feel that I should get something in return. Even an "I love you", but it never happens (unless my mother is drunk).

I feel like I'm in love with someone that will not and cannot love me in return. It's the worst feeling in the world.